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Generalized Anxiety Disorder: How much anxiety is normal?

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Some Anxiety is Normal

Anxiety is a normal human emotion that everyone experiences from time to time however, when it becomes excessive and persistent, anxiety can interfere with daily life and lead to a diagnosis of an anxiety disorder. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder or “GAD” after my husband died in 2020. I’ve also written about my experiences with this disorder before. But now I want to talk about it more in-depth. In this article, we will explore the symptoms, causes, diagnosis, treatment, and coping strategies.

What is An Anxiety Disorder?

Generalized Anxiety Disorder is a mental health condition. It’s characterized by excessive and persistent worry, fear, and nervousness. GAD affects approximately 19% of adults in the United States. It is important to seek help if you think you are experiencing an anxiety disorder of any type. If left untreated, it can interfere with daily life and lead to other mental health conditions.

Signs and Symptoms

An anxiety disorder can manifest in physical, emotional, and behavioral symptoms. Physical symptoms may include rapid heartbeat, sweating, trembling, and shortness of breath. My specific symptoms included all of these.

I also suffer from “panic attacks.” Panic disorder is another type of anxiety disorder and is a little different from GAD. More details on the different types later in the article. All create physical symptoms that are depleting and physically stressful. After each episode, my body felt completely exhausted and required time to heal.

Emotional symptoms may include excessive worry, fear, and nervousness. Behavioral symptoms may include avoidance of certain situations or activities. Just after my trauma, I was unable to drive. I found the expressways especially stressful and avoided them for months. It was only after therapy and learning useful calming techniques that was I able to venture back out.

Causes of an Anxiety Disorder

The causes of anxiety disorders are complex and multifactorial. One contributor is biological factors such as genetics, brain chemistry, and hormonal imbalances which may play a role. A second is environmental factors such as trauma, stress, and substance abuse may also contribute. Lastly, psychological factors such as negative thinking patterns and learned behaviors may also be involved.

My cause was trauma. Trauma from finding my husband’s body. That left me with a sense of insecurity about every facet of my life.

Getting a Diagnosis

Diagnosis is based on the presence of specific symptoms along with the exclusion of other medical or mental health conditions. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5) outlines the diagnostic criteria for anxiety disorders.

Several types fall under this category which include generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, and social anxiety disorder. Click on the link to learn more about each of these disorders. An anxiety disorder may also co-occur with other mental health conditions such as depression. I was also diagnosed with PTSD.

Treatments

Treatment may involve a combination of medications, psychotherapy, and lifestyle changes. Medications may be prescribed to help reduce symptoms. Psychotherapies such as cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) and exposure therapy may be used. These may help with learning coping strategies and overcoming fears. Lifestyle changes such as exercise, healthy eating, and stress reduction techniques may also be helpful.

My treatment included using antidepressants in combination with an anti-anxiety medication. I was lucky in that this combo worked for me. It’s important to note there is a waiting period after starting medications. This is to let the medicine build up and work in the body.

Coping Strategies for Anxiety Disorders

In addition to professional treatment, several coping strategies can help individuals manage anxiety disorders. Relaxation techniques such as deep breathing, progressive muscle relaxation, and meditation can help reduce symptoms. Mindfulness practices such as yoga and tai chi can also be helpful. Exercise such as walking, running, or swimming can help reduce stress and improve mood. Social support from friends, family, or support groups can also be beneficial.

Anxiety disorders are a common mental health condition that can interfere with daily life. It is important to seek help if you think you are experiencing any type of anxiety disorder. Treatment may involve a combination of medications, psychotherapy, and lifestyle changes. Coping strategies such as relaxation techniques, mindfulness practices, exercise, and social support can also be helpful. Remember, you are not alone, and there is help available.

Treatment times may be short or long-term for success. Never lose sight of the end goal and that is to feel better and be more connected to the life around you.

Thanks for reading –xxooC

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Big Life Decisions

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Taking a Break

As I’m sure you’ve noticed, I’ve taken the summer off from posting. I did this for a couple of reasons. I wanted to enjoy the summer without the pressure of producing articles. Quite frankly, it was weighing on my mental health.

I’m a perfectionist. It’s both a curse and blessing. If I can’t give 110%, I don’t do it. I couldn’t give my all to writing, so I gave myself permission to take a break. The decision was hard, and my commitment to myself to stick to the break was difficult but well worth it.

Also I’ve been busy. Pouring myself into work seemed to keep me distracted from my inner self turmoil. I was being challenged with balance in my life so somethings had to be put on hold. I have however, been writing in an actual physical journal almost regularly. That is, up until a few weeks ago when I had to make some big life decisions.

More Big Decisions

That’s when something hugely significant happened in my life. My path was diverted again. I was faced with some pretty hard realizations. One was my mental health condition and how it’s affecting my very being. I had to take time to process, and decide how to proceed. Big life decisions aren’t always easy. Some are a no brainer. Some others, not so much. Most of my big life decisions since 2020 have been in reaction to a bigger life event. These recent decisions were a culmination of festering difficulties and problems I can’t just seem to solve without a complete upheaval of the new life I created.

After trauma and experiencing traumatic grief, I think it’s natural to second guess yourself. PTSD can bring forth many uncertain feelings to just about everything. Personally, I question and doubt myself regularly now. I never did much before. Ultimately, I have to make the choices that benefit not only myself, but the ones’ I love as well. I also feel I have to honor my late husband. In that, I know I have made the right choices for my immediate future.

New Directions

So as the summer ends, so does another chapter in my life. With every ending comes a new beginning. Just as in any grief journey, a new beginning isn’t always a step forward. But it’s a necessary transition nonetheless. I am about to embark on a path I must take and see it through until the end, whatever outcome that may entail. At this point the path forward is completely unknown. I keep saying “I’ll cross that bridge when I get there.”

For Now…

I’ve realized something else over the past year. Mentally and emotionally, I am no where near the person I was before 2020 and I never will be again. The pandemic has left a lasting impact on our very existence. So does the death of a loved one. In some ways I’ve become calloused to words that I hear and words that I say. But never the emotions. They are all still there just tucked away. Sometimes they slip out. Sometimes I let them out. And just like that, the huge big tidal wave of grief washes over me again.

Big life decisions can come with big consequences and big rewards. I’m banking on the big rewards because as I’ve said before, and I think this is my motto now- only when you’ve lost everything is anything possible.

Thanks for reading. –xoxoC

Mental Health and Prioritizing

Welcome back, let’s talk about Mental Health

Oh hey, hi there…I know it’s been a while. Thanks for sticking with me and keeping up with the little bit I’ve put out this summer. It’s been a struggle to sit down and actually focus. This time away from blogging has been an internal challenge for me in so many ways but I won’t go into that here. The topic I want to talk about is mental health and depression. While I have my own battles, I’ve met many others that do as well. For those of you just reading, here is a little background on me. I was diagnosed with PTSD and GAD after my husband died in June of 2020. (click the links to learn/read more.) It’s been a rollercoaster of a ride to say the least.

Before the Grief Trauma

But before all of this, I suffered from severe depression in my late teens and early to mid twenties. I wasn’t quite aware of mental health issues and I had no idea what was happening to me. I had started seeing a very good therapist years before. Not once was depression ever mentioned to me.

Then, all of a sudden, one day I just didn’t want to get out of bed anymore. It was like I just didn’t want to function. Thinking was difficult. I went to work, came home and slept. Woke up, then I went to work, came home and slept. Some days I didn’t make it to work. Fortunately I did not lose my job. I struggled daily not knowing what was going on with me. I couldn’t figure out why my mind and body were betraying me.

Finally as my life spiraled out of control at 24, I became pregnant with my daughter. Then somehow, miraculously, I was cured. I’ve read about pregnancy altering the chemical makeup of one’s brain… but BAM! It really happened to me. I never sunk into any type of deep depression again.

Trauma and Depression, the Difference

Fast forward to after my husband died. Shortly after my trauma, my family had an intervention. I found myself sitting in my doctor’s office. He told me I was “depressed.” I’m told him, “I’m confused, I want to die. I have no will to live. I can’t handle this trauma.” And of course for my treatment, I was prescribed anti-depressants. Which I took. For a while. I was desperate.

They did lighten my mood. They did not take away my thoughts and feelings of grief, despair, sadness, or any of the feelings of losing someone close to you. What the pills succeeded in doing, is buying me some time in not feeling too much of anything. Which was kind of a momentary relief.

Normalizing Talking About Feelings

I’m telling you this because these feelings haven’t really gone away. What takes the place of it all is learning how to cope and learn to look normal on the outside. That’s right, I’ve been faking it. I even fool myself most of the time. But as soon as I start to believe it all, the charade comes tumbling down and the wave hits me again. I’m saying this because I believe it’s so important to normalize talking about how we feel in order to prioritize mental health.

I’ve found finding the right words and having the courage to discuss it extremely hard. In a way, I don’t want to appear weak and not in control of myself. I always went over the conversations in my head beforehand, I found myself asking, how will someone see me after I confess this? The stigma is real.

However, while working here in this lovely city with the most amazing people, I have had quite a few instances that have reminded me why I came here. I came here to find me. The me without him. Rebuilding has been difficult but I’ve survived. Maybe even thrived a little. I’ve learned a lot over the past 10 months, about myself and what I’m capable of.

Learning the Lessons

I’ve been fortunate to come back to a company that understands and also prioritizes mental and physical health. Only with the help of everyone around me up here, have I learned the lessons I was sent here to learn. I’m here to tell you all of you have it in you also. The capability to learn about yourself and move in a forward direction.

Ultimately it’s not about will, and it’s not about finding something you’re passionate about. Everything in life can be going great, but mental health has to be a priority. Even if you’ve never had a traumatic event, prioritizing mental health is so important. In that, it’s accepting one day, one minute at a time.

For me, it’s learning to live. Maybe even love again. This time away has nurtured my inner child. I’ve done things that make me happy. Beginning to dream again. And most of all, it’s about finding gratitude. Being grateful for what I have. I sometimes don’t realize how fortunate I am. I’m trying to get back to that.

What does prioritizing mental health look like to you?

Thanks for reading. I love you all! -xxooC

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