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June 19, 2024

A Grief Journey Continued: Chasing Clarity

The Anniversary of the Beginning I must confess, my last post about facing the fourth anniversary of the start of my grief journey was a bit of a joke to me and not the haha kind. Although I wrote and rewrote it several times, no words seemed to convey what I was experiencing. I couldn’t… Continue reading

Destinations, Grief, On The Road

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September 9, 2023

More Change

Moving, moving, moving I’ve been thinking a lot lately. Thinking on how much life has changed and continues to change since my husband left. But change can be good right? Once I believed with every ending was a new beginning. Although nowadays, I’m finding that harder and harder to be true. In grief, sometimes endings… Continue reading

On The Road, Thoughts and Notes

#change, #findingpeace, #grief, #moving, #widow
February 26, 2023

Honoring My Late Husband in a Place He Loved

Leaving More of Myself I’ve been staring at a blank screen for a couple of hours now. I’m not sure why I’m having such a hard time starting this article. My late husband’s ashes rest in many places I’ve visited in the two and half years since he left. I expected the ceremonial process and… Continue reading

Destinations, On The Road, Thoughts and Notes

#bluewidow, #findingpeace, #grief, #kentucky, #loss, #peace, #travel, #widow, roadtrip
November 22, 2022

Times Change

Times Change. Love Doesn’t Seasons change and so does life. Life goes on even after someone we love dies. The death is a huge loss and an unmistakable marker in the life of the persons that loved them. However time is both forgiving and not. Times change and time changes things. It helps move around… Continue reading

On The Road, Thoughts and Notes, Uncategorized

#adventure, #bluewidow, #chicago, #findingpeace, #grief, #moving, #newspace, #widow
October 12, 2022

My First Wedding as a Widow: Facing Grief and Memories

Before I Was a Widow I attended a wedding in Georgia this past weekend. I know this doesn’t sound significant, but it is. So let me explain. I personally have only been in two weddings my entire life. My late husband, however, was asked to be in LOTS of weddings. Or at least we were… Continue reading

On The Road, Thoughts and Notes

#adventure, #grief, #loss, #love, #peace, #travel, #wedding, #widow, #widowchronicles
September 21, 2022

The Midwest Beach, Indiana Dunes

Loving the Beach Hi all. I appreciate every single one of you following my journey. Now I want to share a place that’s quickly becoming a favorite getaway for me. I’ve had the good fortune on multiple occasions now, to visit the Indiana Dunes. This area in North West Indiana boasts a State Park and… Continue reading

Destinations, On The Road

#adventure, #beach, #dunesnationalpark, #findingpeace, #grief, #indianadunes, #lakemichigan, #midwestbeach, #nationalpark, #travel, #trip, #wanderlust, #widow, roadtrip
July 19, 2022

Feeding My California Love

How My California Love Started My love for California started six years ago. I flew in to Ontario airport for the Nocturnal Wonderland Festival in the hills outside San Bernardino. The drive to the hotel was almost an hour. I remember thinking the landscape looked similar to Las Vegas but then it didn’t. That weekend… Continue reading

Destinations, On The Road

#adventure, #attractions, #bluewidow, #california, #californialove, #findingpeace, #grief, #losangeles, #peace, #roadtrip, #sanfrancisco, #tourist, #travel, #wanderlust, #widow, #widowchronicles
July 16, 2022

Tattoo Convention in Pamona, CA

Arriving for the Tattoo Convention I had the good fortune of traveling to California recently. The Body Art Expo in Pamona, California was in June and I attended with my good friend and tattoo artist Rich Shires of Tattoo 42 in Beaverton, Oregon. Flying into LAX on Saturday evening was an experience in itself. I’ve… Continue reading

Destinations, On The Road

#adventure, #bluewidow, #california, #convention, #la, #lax, #losangeles, #roadtrip, #tattoo, #tattooconvention, #travel, #wanderlust, #widow, #widowchronicles
April 26, 2022

Kansas City, MO > Pagosa Springs, CO

What a drive! About half was done off the interstate. The rural areas in Colorado were just amazing. Lucy did great. Still trying to get traveling with a feline figured out but hey, she did awesome for being 20 and not having much experience in the car. As always, there were many times I wanted… Continue reading

On The Road

#acrosstheusa, #adventure, #blueskies, #cat, #colorado, #companion, #kansascitymo, #mountains, #pagosaspringscolorado, #pets, #plains, #roadtrip, #travel, #travelcat, #wanderlust
April 26, 2022

Shelbyville, KY > Kansas City, MO

Hi there and hello from Kansas City, Missouri. The trip took a little longer than expected. Lucy had a few moments requiring quite a bit of attention. After all the traveling across the country, we still don’t have a solid routine down yet. Also I drove through a massive storm system that spawned tornados in… Continue reading

On The Road

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About The Blue Widow Chronicles and Me

The Blue Widow Chronicles began after my husband, Eric, died suddenly in 2020. I became a widow overnight, and the writing became the place I went to make sense of a life that no longer made sense.

What began as writing through grief has grown with me.

Over the years, I’ve written my way through widowhood, PTSD and trauma, solo travel, love after loss, losing Greg to suicide, starting over, complicated relationships, and the ongoing work of figuring out who I am when the life I once knew no longer exists.

This isn’t a blog about having grief figured out. I write from wherever I actually am—sometimes healing, sometimes questioning, sometimes rebuilding, and sometimes admitting I have no idea what comes next.

Odin and Freija frequently find their way into these pages too, along with the people, places, memories, and ordinary moments that remind me life continues even when it looks nothing like the one I expected.

What You’ll Find Here

The Chronicles are personal essays about grief, trauma, identity, love, relationships, travel, rebuilding, and life after loss. Some were written from inside the experience. Others look back years later with a perspective I couldn’t have had when everything was happening.

There are more than five years of stories here. You don’t need to read them in order. Start wherever something speaks to you.

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