Blue Widow Chronicles

From loss to living. This is my story.


The Hollywood Shot Glass

Hollywood shot glass finding resilience


An Ordinary Little Shot Glass

Tonight, I opened the cabinet to get a glass, and there it was. The Hollywood shot glass. It’s just an ordinary little shot glass with the word “Hollywood” on it. I have no idea where it came from. All I know is that Eric either brought it with him or someone gave it to him around the time we moved into our house in Kentucky in 1998.

For years, it sat on the counter of our double sink in the bathroom. It became the catch-all for findings, random body jewelry, bits and pieces of earrings, and whatever else ended up in it. At one point, it had collected so much gunk that I was completely disgusted, dumped everything out, and cleaned it. I didn’t do that often. It was just one of those things that was always there. Nothing special. Nothing meaningful. Just a little shot glass sitting on the bathroom counter, holding random things that didn’t seem to belong anywhere else.

Honestly, I don’t even remember it being in our house in Normal. I can’t picture it there at all. But somehow, it survived. It made it through all of the chaos. At some point, it even became an actual shot glass, which, by the way, was something I swore I would never do with it. Greg and I used it as a real shot glass in Logan Square. Ironic that after a few decades of collecting random bits and pieces of jewelry, it finally served its intended purpose.

Somehow, It Made It Here…


The story continues on Beyond the Pages.

Sometimes the smallest, most ordinary things have a way of reminding us just how far we’ve come.

What began as a simple moment of opening a cabinet became an unexpected reflection on resilience, reinvention, and the parts of ourselves that survive everything life puts us through.

I’ve shared the rest of The Hollywood Shot Glass on Patreon, where the story continues.

Continue reading this reflection on finding resilience in unexpected places on Beyond the Pages.

Thanks for your support. I love you all –xxooC

Tell Me Something Good

About The Blue Widow Chronicles and Me

The Blue Widow Chronicles began after my husband, Eric, died suddenly in 2020. I became a widow overnight, and the writing became the place I went to make sense of a life that no longer made sense.

What began as writing through grief has grown with me.

Over the years, I’ve written my way through widowhood, PTSD and trauma, solo travel, love after loss, losing Greg to suicide, starting over, complicated relationships, and the ongoing work of figuring out who I am when the life I once knew no longer exists.

This isn’t a blog about having grief figured out. I write from wherever I actually am—sometimes healing, sometimes questioning, sometimes rebuilding, and sometimes admitting I have no idea what comes next.

Odin and Freija frequently find their way into these pages too, along with the people, places, memories, and ordinary moments that remind me life continues even when it looks nothing like the one I expected.

What You’ll Find Here

The Chronicles are personal essays about grief, trauma, identity, love, relationships, travel, rebuilding, and life after loss. Some were written from inside the experience. Others look back years later with a perspective I couldn’t have had when everything was happening.

There are more than five years of stories here. You don’t need to read them in order. Start wherever something speaks to you.

Beyond the Pages

Some stories can be told publicly. Others need a smaller room.

Beyond the Pages is the more intimate side of The Blue Widow Chronicles on Patreon—a growing private library of previously unpublished journal entries, deeper reflections on the Chronicles, member-only writing, and guided writing resources.

Membership is $5/month and includes access to the complete growing library.

Come further in —Beyond the Pages

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