#findingpeace
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Saying Goodbye After Loss: Finding Peace in Our Last Goodbye
The author experiences ups and downs in their grief journey, feeling melancholy as anniversaries approach. A pivotal moment comes when they realize they had already said goodbye to their husband. Remembering the significance of goodbyes brings them peace and a sense of closure, highlighting the importance of parting words. Continue reading
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The Breaking Point: Dealing With So Much
Preface: This is a warning that I have been trying to write something for a while, but I am all over the place. Over the past couple of weeks, I have had so many thoughts and ideas about what I want to write about. I would start, then stop, and not finish anything. I kept… Continue reading
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Fear of Writing: From Trauma to Triumph
The writer shares experiences of betrayal, loss, and fear related to writing and creativity. Exploring the impact of childhood boundary violation, she emphasizes the healing potential of writing and offers tips for reconnecting with creativity, practicing self-care, and seeking support. Overcoming fear is depicted as a journey of healing and empowerment. Continue reading
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Is it Moving On OR Forgetting: The Analyzing
The writer shares her journey of grappling with the loss of her husband and navigating the realm of companionship as a widow. She emphasizes the need to take things at one’s own pace, honoring the deceased spouse, and seeking new connections. Safety precautions and self-protection are highlighted. The message promotes self-determination and finding purpose in… Continue reading
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Verbal Abuse: Recognizing, Coping and Healing
The content discusses the serious impact of verbal abuse on mental health and well-being. It emphasizes the importance of recognizing the signs, seeking help, coping strategies, and healing. Coping strategies include seeking support, practicing self-care, and setting boundaries. Recovery is a journey that requires patience and effort, but it is possible to overcome the effects… Continue reading
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Positive Affirmations: Harness the Power of a Positive Mindset
What are Positive Affirmations? I remember watching the movie “The Devil Wears Prada” for the very first time. Being in fashion, I adored this movie immensely. When Emily repeated to herself, “I love my job. I love my job. I love my job.” something inside me took notice. She was using the power of positive… Continue reading
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Life After Losing a Spouse: Four Years Into Grief
This year felt a little different going in. I don’t know why. As they say, the fog is lifting, and I’m beginning to see things clearer in my new life after losing my spouse. The one day I’ve been dreading quickly approached. As those closest to us know, Eric and I were married on Friday… Continue reading
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Setting Healthy Boundaries: Tips for Maintaining Good Health
The Importance of Setting Healthy Boundaries Hello all, my days have been busy, to say the least. Between work and house chores, my publishing business takes up any free time I have left. Whereas, I’m in the process of writing a non-fiction manuscript about identifying and healing from toxic relationships with a focus on intergenerational… Continue reading
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(Pt 1) Overthinking: What is it and Causes
Is Overthinking Real? When I was younger, I didn’t notice my intrusive, self-doubting thoughts. It was when I opened my business at the age of 28. The thoughts were always there but suddenly became very prominent. On the way home from work most days, I used to go through everything I did and said. I… Continue reading
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Don’t Fear Change: Embrace Starting Something New
Fear of Change New can be scary. In my years as a manager, I’ve learned that some people don’t like change. Those people will always stay stagnant until and unless circumstances push them to move outside their comfort zone and do something different. Willing or unwilling, change only happens in the uncomfortable zone, but, there’s… Continue reading
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Reflections of the New Year: Navigating Uncharted Waters
The New Year Welcome to the New Year. I hate social media, yet we live there, don’t we? Today I was reminded of a New Year past, from 2019—such a bittersweet memory with my husband. Nothing could touch us. We were on top of the world. Both of us were in a new position and… Continue reading
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So This Was Christmas: Finding Peace Amidst Grief
Christmas’s Past I don’t know when I started to dislike Christmas. Somewhere around the time that being a small business owner of a tattoo/piercing studio was not profitable from October to Christmas became a reality. Birthdays and tax season were a big deal, but holidays just became a burden. There always seemed to be too… Continue reading
About The Blue Widow Chronicles and Me
The Blue Widow Chronicles began after my husband, Eric, died suddenly in 2020. I became a widow overnight, and the writing became the place I went to make sense of a life that no longer made sense.
What began as writing through grief has grown with me.
Over the years, I’ve written my way through widowhood, PTSD and trauma, solo travel, love after loss, losing Greg to suicide, starting over, complicated relationships, and the ongoing work of figuring out who I am when the life I once knew no longer exists.
This isn’t a blog about having grief figured out. I write from wherever I actually am—sometimes healing, sometimes questioning, sometimes rebuilding, and sometimes admitting I have no idea what comes next.
Odin and Freija frequently find their way into these pages too, along with the people, places, memories, and ordinary moments that remind me life continues even when it looks nothing like the one I expected.
What You’ll Find Here
The Chronicles are personal essays about grief, trauma, identity, love, relationships, travel, rebuilding, and life after loss. Some were written from inside the experience. Others look back years later with a perspective I couldn’t have had when everything was happening.
There are more than five years of stories here. You don’t need to read them in order. Start wherever something speaks to you.
Beyond the Pages
Some stories can be told publicly. Others need a smaller room.
Beyond the Pages is the more intimate side of The Blue Widow Chronicles on Patreon—a growing private library of previously unpublished journal entries, deeper reflections on the Chronicles, member-only writing, and guided writing resources.
Membership is $5/month and includes access to the complete growing library.
Come further in —Beyond the Pages