Blue Widow Chronicles

From loss to living. This is my story.


Lucy is Back

lucy is back to her old self

Lucy is Back To Feeling Better

A new Lucy Update! Lucy is back to her old self. We’ve been back in Kentucky exactly 10 days. The first days were sketchy at first yes. I try to keep a routine but it isn’t always easy. She’s been back into a solid routine and now we are seeing the results. All meds she takes are given orally now. She’s still a picky eater. I’m not quite sure what changed with her, but she’s more than happy to take meds with a bit of tuna fish. There once was a time where oral meds slipped into food were a hard no.

Her spirits are good. She wakes me up around 7:15 am. on time, every morning. Waiting for her first meal of tuna.

Meds and Other Stuff

Lucy loves a good chin scratch as you can see from the photo. Lucy’s back to demanding attention every morning. In a previous Lucy update, I believe I mention we are trying to ween her off the alprazolam but she is much better tempered on it. It also stimulates appetite which I think I’ve mentioned before. I now add the alprazolam into the cocktail in the morning tuna fish.

I think from all of the attention that she has actually gained some weight. Lucy has not been on a scale since the vet came, so we aren’t sure what her weight is yet. I will update you when we know more. She definitely looks plumper, if that’s a thing then yeah, she looks healthier all around. I am offering food constantly and she is more than happy to eat it. She is on the diet we started before we left.

Her day now consists of a solid routine. She has become very vocal and social again. She wakes me up between 7 am and 7:30 am for her first meal like an alarm clock.

Here’s a little video of bath time today. Enjoy! Thanks for reading.

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About The Blue Widow Chronicles and Me

The Blue Widow Chronicles began after my husband, Eric, died suddenly in 2020. I became a widow overnight, and the writing became the place I went to make sense of a life that no longer made sense.

What began as writing through grief has grown with me.

Over the years, I’ve written my way through widowhood, PTSD and trauma, solo travel, love after loss, losing Greg to suicide, starting over, complicated relationships, and the ongoing work of figuring out who I am when the life I once knew no longer exists.

This isn’t a blog about having grief figured out. I write from wherever I actually am—sometimes healing, sometimes questioning, sometimes rebuilding, and sometimes admitting I have no idea what comes next.

Odin and Freija frequently find their way into these pages too, along with the people, places, memories, and ordinary moments that remind me life continues even when it looks nothing like the one I expected.

What You’ll Find Here

The Chronicles are personal essays about grief, trauma, identity, love, relationships, travel, rebuilding, and life after loss. Some were written from inside the experience. Others look back years later with a perspective I couldn’t have had when everything was happening.

There are more than five years of stories here. You don’t need to read them in order. Start wherever something speaks to you.

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