Sleep Kitty Sleep

August 7, 2022

Sleep Kitty (Do Not Disturb)

I wanted to update you as it’s been a while and Lucy isn’t doing so well. This kitty has been sleeping a lot. She’s been a real trooper but I fear this trip to Georgia has just really taken her down. Every time I leave with her I know it could be her last few days. I feel I’ve prepared myself but it still hurts to see her struggle.

For the moment, she is still eating but it’s just a couple of nibbles throughout the day. She is still drinking water and enjoying doing some small kitty things like cleaning her paws. That is when she is not in sleep kitty mode.

There was an accident as she took a hard spill jumping down from a bed, even though she had stairs to use. Lucy is determined to live the rest of her days on her terms. Unfortunately she is now paying the price and I’m contemplating asking for pain meds as walking has become noticeably painful.

Rundown on Meds

Lucy’s meds remain the same except the vet upped her prednisolone last month. I think this happened after the last update. I have also increased her alprazolam dosage to .25-.5 mg a day. This seems to keep her appetite a little stimulated and she is comfortable. Honestly, she is declining but still in good spirits. She sleeps most of the day. When she is awake, she is alert and always enjoys a good head and chin scratch. She also is purring on occasion but not nearly as frequently as she used to which is another signal we may reach the end of our journey sooner than I thought.

Final Thoughts

I am hoping she makes it back to Kentucky next week. Hard decisions will have to be made if she makes the trip. Lucy has been a very loyal companion for over 20 years. Rest assured she will not be allowed to suffer. I love her too much. Recently, I have seen in her eyes that she is getting tired. Thanks for all of your well wishes and concern for her well being. I love and appreciate you all for following her journey as well as mine. xxooC

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One response to “Sleep Kitty Sleep”

marianallen

August 9, 2022 at 2:45 pm

Lucy looks like a darling and a beauty, just like her hooman. It’s hard to say goodbye, but I know your heart will tell you when it’s time to let her go. HUGS

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